Lately, I’ve been saying the same thing over and over again.
An instant snapshot of today’s office (atop a mountain or in the middle of nothing but water) aptly titled, “Today’s Office”, followed by a brief paragraph on how much I owe this blog a proper entry. Well, this post has no actual plans of breaking the pattern—just intentions, yes.
In the last month and a half, I’ve been: filming all over two provinces (both of which are currently deep in post-production; the scriptwriting far from done), busy with the launch of a regional passion project—which is now mainstreamed into my daily grind of editing work, and managing another team in redesigning and soon to relaunch another website-slash-online publication. In between all that, I’ve been shuffling the Social Media Community Manager hat for three other projects. While this listing may subtly read as a complaint—especially for those of you who’ve seen me scutter around in confusion, halting in mid-sentence or starting two incongruous thoughts at the same time, I must say that I have never seen this grease monkey of a work machine more oiled than ever. To call it a rough road is an understatement, but the right road nonetheless, with minimal detours and distractions. And perhaps it was this new control-ridden-driver on the wheel that switched gears and propelled things out of haziness. Yes, I’ve been frustrated, obsessive, methodological (*gasp*) more than ever. But as I allow myself to take a step back and sit along the roadside of this winding dirt road—I can’t help but feel grateful. To be busy doing the things I’ve always wanted to do and work on things I believe in. To be able to work with such dedicated, talented, and good-natured people. That I am constantly learning from each task and each person I encounter/work with each day. I know I haven’t actually expressed this gratitude—with the exception of grumpy grunts and nods. But I mean it: Thanks.
All this recent obsessive cribbing and planning seem to have just led me to a deeper rut of frustration. Slowly unweaving myself from this mental pattern, I am taking a few steps back and just…recalibrating, reorienting. More than anything, I am appreciating the value of simplicity. With regard to all aspects, but in this specific context, simplicity in perspective and simplicity in approach. I’ve been meeting people who seem to possess this uncomplicated and uncluttered orientation AND mental disposition, and for that I am really grateful.
So before this rambling plummets to full-on feelings spelunking, I am excited to wrap things up and launch these projects soon. Then, maybe a vacation, or more likely a relocation—but that’s for another post. :)